Overcoming the Winter Depression

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I am totally not writting this to make you guys feel down or whatever, I just felt like writing how I deal with my winter mood swings since this is a thing that affects me and many people every year...

This year was different to many others... I generally have a lot of things to do, job, church choir, teaching sunday school, be with family, be with friends, be with boyfriend, etc... But this time I didn't have that much to do...

I had to quit my job on october because I wasn't getting paid... at all. This girl gotta pay her own bills... So I started looking for a new job, but I couldn't find anything! It honestly felt like the universe was plotting against me... It had been quite a while since I was unemployed, nearly 5 years!

So, after a month and a half, I lost hope and gave up looking for a job... I said: "I'll take this time to rest and think what I want out of life, I'll start looking for a job on january"

But that was just it, I had no idea what I wanted out of life, what I wanted to do with my life... I still have no clue by the way...

So I started to get all existentialist, thinking how I had wasted this past year, how I'm already on my mid 20's and still haven't achieved anything I considered worthy. And since I couldn't find a job I started to lose faith in my abilities, I though: "Maybe I'm not that great as a designer... maybe I suck..."

And all this within a month... I spent my days laying on the couch on my pj's watching every tv series or movie I hadn't seen, and listening to every depressing tune on my playlist. And of course I started to crave everything I watched on TV... fucking TV...

People, especially girls... PLEASE ignore anything you see on TV, that's not real life...

Back to the point.. I was being a pussy and letting my feelings take over my mind... That's not cool....

So how did I overcame this? I literally kicked my ass out of that couch. There's no use in feeling sorry for myself... a job wasn't gonna land in my lap and make everything perfect again. I had to get up and do something for myself.

I started sending resumes and actually started working out.

People, working out is like the best therapy ever! You'll never feel bad or depressed after a workout, maybe sore... but the feeling of doing something to improve your health is great!

And yeah... I still have no job.. and no money... and some debts... I still have no idea what I want to do with my life but I'm no longer feeling down about it... besides, there are people in the world with bigger problems than mine, and I don't say it to like feel good about myself, on the contrary, I feel bad about myself for letting me down for such trivial things....

I still have plenty of time to figure things out, God help me...

There's no use wasting time thinking about all the thins you haven't done, all the time you think is slipping through your fingers... Better to do something with that time, than literally throwing it away...

YOLO has a deeper meaning to me now, and yeah I am aware that sounded ridiculous... But bare with me here... 

YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE. That's the ultimate truth. You only have one life to make the best out of it, to achieve your goals, to go after your dreams, not to throw it away abusing alcohol and drugs... people please.. that's just being stupid...

That said... I really hope I didn't bore you to death... Those who made it to the end, you have my eternal love (:

Get up of that couch! Take life by the horns! Or whatever way you wanna say it.... Just do something for yourself.

Love and stuff.

PS. Also... I changed my hair! Go check it out on my IG!